you tell him, “thanks for letting me know, sir,” then you amble your way off the table still chewing your crackers. you got them at the back of the fridge this morning, the holiday’s leftover. stale like the lips of an indulgent lover. you’re so cool when you play pretend, and even you know it. […]
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and there are days where i make love to myself. after years of counted calories, guilted binges, and hopeful purges, this $5 coral mirror is now where self-love is made. dilated eyes, chills, and butterflies: this is progress. i am unconventionally gorgeous. this is not arrogance; this is forgiveness at its most raw. knock softly. […]
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A backbone to hold me up, steady me slightly until I fall short of all I need to be. A backbone, or more a wishbone, pulling, always getting the shorter end. Always ripping to shreds chances of hopes, of dreams, of things. This weight was always heavy, and these thoughts were lighter than air, But […]
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my organs are rotting from the inside. all i can do is rip them out, feathers in a pillow. bones pop. all i can do is throw them in the trash, smile. teeth fall. i count them one by one. tangible proof, two grams each. hide in the bathroom, try to stay safe. the kitchen […]
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Limited by the seam of size six jeans, Defined by the red lines on my curves. Lowered by the sacks of shame overlapping my skinny jeans on my waist. I wasn’t taught that I wasn’t good enough I was taught I was more than there would ever be need of. […]
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Body image and eating disorders are topics that continue to have serious relevancy today in all social, personal, and emotional situations — most commonly affecting those in their adolescent years and throughout their teens. Anorexia In the case of anorexia nervosa, the afflicted are disturbed by a distorted perception of themselves. To them, their weight and body […]
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Through her piercing hazel eyes, the road to happiness starts with a glass plate of perfection. The diary of destruction nests below the pillow of roses, nestled and bare below. Shame is a silent murderer, slitting your throat half past midnight. Body heavy, body armed — the flesh is caught in a war of shotgun […]
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Every week I step on the tired scale wondering why I want to lose parts of myself. I open the refrigerator door just to look: It’s yellow light shines on my neat rows of sleeping children. The other people at the party indulge in their red velvet and wedding cake, as I admire my lonely […]
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When I was in 6th grade, a girl in class that I didn’t know very well passed me a note. I opened it up, and it said: “Learn the way to dress!” At the time, I was a little too confused about why she was giving me a note to really be hurt about it; […]
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