While my friends, all beautiful with diamond promises on their left hands, live out overflowing love and beginnings, I’m here in this empty, secret, overgrowth garden that is the middle of me. Hope waits at the gates as I swing myself over and over the green pond at the center and rub fallen pink rose […]
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By the time I was electrocuted on an ungrounded stage in San Bernardino, my first band was already over. We hadn’t broken up yet, but the fissures were obvious. Our tensions had been high for weeks, ever since that recording incident or — if I’m being honest — since I began dating our drummer, David, […]
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Flash back to about seven months ago. It’s the middle of summer, and my boyfriend and I were knee-deep in a Say Yes to the Dress marathon. Bellies full of pizza, eyes humming, we stared at the TV and made occasional sounds of disdain or grunts of disbelief as the episode’s featured victims tried on […]
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We all experience feelings of not belonging, of thinking we’re the only one standing alone at a party when everyone else is having a great time. You hope and pray that humiliating sensation will fade once you graduate high school. Surely in college or out in the working world we’ll all be members of the […]
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“Putting someone’s needs above your own desires.” “Forgiving someone without consequences.” “Letting someone have that LAST piece of cake.” These are all common beliefs of what love has embodied. To each person love entails a different story, but let’s face it: We all start the story with once upon a time and finish with and […]
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I’m in a really strange place right now. My thoughts are not my own. I don’t know my rights or wrongs. I feel invisible and out of place. You say I’m fine, that you don’t hate me, but that’s not what I feel. Deep down I know you all love me for who I am […]
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Lately, I have found it impossible not to acknowledge the growing impact of social media on any sort of relationship. You think that social media would be used to connect with one another. Instead it has become something that tears people apart and tears ourselves apart. The impact that social media has on our self-image […]
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To the one that broke my heart, It’s been two days, and I wonder if you’re okay. I wonder if you’re in as much pain as I am. I wonder if you think about me as much as I think about you. I wonder if you miss me as much as I miss you. These […]
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falling in love in my late teens, i thought i knew everything i needed to know. i thought those movies where the girl falls in love with the boy and she’d fight for his attention until they’d kiss under the sunset and dance in the rain portrayed what real love was. all smiles and bright […]
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