December 20, 2017, marked one year since my grandfather passed away. The past year has been a journey of first denial, grief, then guilt, and forgiveness. I wanted to share this with all of you in the hopes that it will help some of you when you experience the same thing — because it will […]
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There’s only one word to describe the empty hollow inside of your chest that springs tears into your eyes and the constant state of nothing you’re living in: heartbreak. Heartbreak, or maybe, perhaps, heartache. When the words you verbally express are just fragments of the thoughts hammering in your mind. Like, even though you’re walking, […]
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He’d spill a novel about how the only time I told him his art was beautiful was when the whites of my eyes were on fire. His wall would be polluted with Pulitzers for every article he’d hurl where I was hungover in the hallway. He’d burn his memoir so he wouldn’t remember how his […]
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“And nobody tells you what happens after they say happily ever after,” she blurts out. “Nobody tells you what happens after endearment starts to fade and adoration turns to boredom. When love turns out to be lust and forever just turns out to be a phase for numbered days, and nobody tells you that happily […]
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These walls are unbroken Inside them I’m breaking bending bleeding Pleading for freedom far from this prison I’ve built. Lyrical liar don’t listen to your words You don’t hear the things they say. You’ve sliced off your ears. You’ve cut off your face. What mind hides behind that mindless mask? Don’t make my blindness last. […]
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I think one of the problems with society today is that everyone seems to be romanticizing mental disorders. People think it’s cool to be “depressed” or to say they have anxiety to get out of doing things, or they make fun of someone who suffers from a real disorder. Let me tell you something right […]
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After we slung our rotten insults, after we slammed every door, after we clawed the headboard paint instead of saying, sorry, after I dropped the tea cup just to hear something shatter, I woke to the smell of you making coffee. I could already taste the sweet cream. There you were in your Sunday morning smile, […]
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My mother made a slide show for my grandfather’s funeral, and I would stand in silence, observing the process, and she pushed me aside as if she was hiding a secret between the words she had typed onto that empty page and she did not want me to look beyond the letters. The remains […]
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Dear High School Me, You have it all figured out, don’t you? It’s okay, though. You justify it by knowing that you’re still young, and you’re going to change, learn, and grow. You look forward to growing up a bit and then being able to laugh at your younger self, which — trust me […]
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